When I Am Called A Model

Life is so weird. Can I hear an amen? When I was young, I spent hours in front of a mirror. I was lonely and bored. I loved swirling around and making faces (a trait that I was put down for because it reminded my mom of my dad.) I don’t have many personal memories … Continue reading When I Am Called A Model →

My Bucket List

Hey, Y'all. I have never really made my true bucket list available for people to read. I have done some but nothing that was really personal. I have made a personal bucket list in my diary 100 times over. There is only one bucket list that matters though. It was the one I made when … Continue reading My Bucket List →

My Relationship With Food As Of Now

I have a love-hate relationship with food. I think this builds on top of years and years of twisted relationships with food. Who reading this is from a southern family where you didn’t have a lot of money? This next part maybe will resonate with you. One day you can be sitting at the table … Continue reading My Relationship With Food As Of Now →

Good Fat Bad Fat

Good fat, bad fat, thin privilege, small fat privilege, financial privilege, who you know privilege. This is going to be the topic of this post and a few posts to come on how all these words affect a fat person’s world. This is a blog post for women my size to feel seen and/or for … Continue reading Good Fat Bad Fat →

Losing Those We Are Close To

I have been thinking a lot about losing people lately. When you reach a certain age, you know that it will not be long before you are parentless. When you have a pet for so many years you know your time is short. So many of my friends lately have been losing parents and pets. … Continue reading Losing Those We Are Close To →

Kailani’s Birthday

Today my sweet girl turns 21. We used to have many dreams of this day and how we would spend it together. Now we are apart and live way more than a few minutes apart. How I miss the fact we were so close. I imagine now that if I lived there still, she would … Continue reading Kailani’s Birthday →

Blog Series: Internet Relationships – Guys vs Girls

Making friends is hard when you’re middle-aged. It’s just facts. Most people are already coupled up with groups of long-time friends. I thought the friends I made in my early 30s would be my ride or die for life. I felt so at home with all of them. We supported each other, we went to … Continue reading Blog Series: Internet Relationships – Guys vs Girls →

Acquaintances vs Stranger HATE

Hi Beauties, this is going to be a piece talking about how I handle the hate and what affects me vs what doesn’t. I am going to start out on the easier of the two to handle and talk about. Stranger Hate. Recently on Tiktok (and this is exactly why I did not want to … Continue reading Acquaintances vs Stranger HATE →

Diary 101 #10: All The Big, Scary Things

Have you ever done big things? Things you could never imagine you would do? Well, it just so happens I had one of those experiences. Sometimes when I'm down, I start to wonder if I will ever have anything to show for my life, and then I remember I have done big scary things. I … Continue reading Diary 101 #10: All The Big, Scary Things →

PTSD Awareness Day

Being aware of mental illness is something more and more people are doing. For the first time in forever, Mental illness is not the dirty little word in the room anymore….. or is it? The stigma may not be in mental Illness itself but in what type of mental illness you have. Why is depression … Continue reading PTSD Awareness Day →