September Goals

The thing about goals I want you to understand is some people do and some people do not function well with goals. What works for me may not work for you and that is ok. I sometimes meet all my goals and sometimes I don’t meet a single one. This month I have some pretty … Continue reading September Goals →

Acquaintances vs Stranger HATE

Hi Beauties, this is going to be a piece talking about how I handle the hate and what affects me vs what doesn’t. I am going to start out on the easier of the two to handle and talk about. Stranger Hate. Recently on Tiktok (and this is exactly why I did not want to … Continue reading Acquaintances vs Stranger HATE →

Fear In Picking A New Doctor

There is nothing more frightening for fat folks than having to go to the doctor. Especially if it is a new doctor. Honestly, the one good thing about covid was the telehealth options. I was able to find two new doctors this way and then when I had to see them in person it was … Continue reading Fear In Picking A New Doctor →

Happy (3rd) Anniversary To Me!

Here we are on March 25, 2022. To you, this date may not mean too much but to me, it is the day that I officially began this blog. 3 years ago I was so scared and so in awe of how my boyfriend had so much faith in me that he bought me my … Continue reading Happy (3rd) Anniversary To Me! →

DBT and Facing My Past

I have the unique situation where I am in DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy) group therapy and this is made for me. I have been in this group twice; it has cycles and I’m doing the cycle again. My Mental health needs have changed. This time around I’m not so focused on my past hurts and … Continue reading DBT and Facing My Past →

A Look Back on 2021

Did 2021 even happen? To some of us, 2021 was the great entry back into life from the 2020 shutdown, for others it was just an extension to 2020. For me personally not too much changed. Ok nothing changed except maybe I went easier on the boys and Jeremy about baths, hand washing, and germ … Continue reading A Look Back on 2021 →

Seeing Others As They Are

I remember sitting in my therapist’ office during one of our first visits together and we were diving deep into my past. When we were done, she sat back and said words that I'll never forget. “Wow Evie, looking at you today you would never know that you went through all that”. She went on … Continue reading Seeing Others As They Are →

My Visit to the New Cardiologist – Part 2

Part 2 - The Day Has Arrived So now we have arrived on the day of my in person visit with the new cardiologist. I had time to work myself up with worry, having a list of fears running through my head about: Getting to the appointmentNot knowing where to go in the hospital once … Continue reading My Visit to the New Cardiologist – Part 2 →

My Visit to the New Cardiologist – Part 1

Part 1 - Remembering the Past My visit to a new Cardiologist came with a lot of “new” things. Before we talk about those, let’s start from the beginning. I moved to Massachusetts three years ago, and I came to this new state knowing these three things: I was told / reassured that the Boston … Continue reading My Visit to the New Cardiologist – Part 1 →

Memorial Day

I am posting my Memorial Day post at the bottom of this blog, looking for photos, writing these words made me think of how things have changed. How traditions are no longer a part of my life and how making new traditions have been hard for me. When you move to a new place, change … Continue reading Memorial Day →